2nd time worship leading..

Well, its as scary as ever...

I really dunno whether I can cope being a WL..

Its so scary!!! :(

Oh well, I have one more time to lead b4 I leave n I have to make sure its a good1..lol..

Okay here's what happen..

I got to know that I was leading like 4 days b4 the event.. So yea usually people can think of songs and prepare themselves by then rite?? Guess wat!!! I duno what happen to me but I could not think of any songs and I could not even prepare myself.. Sigh.. I was so frustrated with myself.. Cus its a big thing and yet I can't think of anything.. After a day or so then I thought of 2 songs but both with diff themes. One was on love n the other was on surrender and I love those songs but I thought it was not suitable for both of it to be sung together.

So after much thought,I decided to choose one of it and it had the theme surrender.. Okay I got all the necessary songs but guess what, it was easier to choose love songs.. All the love songs to Jesus started to pour into my head and I just started scribbling all the titles down but I made up my mind to do surrender so I stuck to it..

Finally the day came.. I was as usual SUPER NERVOUS!! I was one of the 1st few ppl there besides Wilson(youth ps intern).. Then Wilson asked who was WL in ISCA(our youth group) and I said it was me.. So he told me that he wanted me to end worship with this song, "I will have to no other God's before me". For those who know this song, the chorus is on expressing our love to God with all our heart, mind and soul.. So the theme was LOVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! I was like ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!! I should have asked Wilson wat was he going to share in ISCA that day..sigh..

The thing that most frustrated me was that I had all the Christian love songs in mind plus the songs were really suitable for that topic but I stuck to what I had decided.. HOW STUBBORN OF ME!!!! Stubborn and blind of me not to realise what the Holy Spirit was prompting me to do.. Which was to lead worship with the theme of love.. It was so obvious it was LOVE cus all I could think of was Love songs to God but I was so stubborn and I did it on Surrender.. Haizz.. This time I will listen.. Guess what?! In the end, I sang both the songs thst came to my head the 1st time.. Of course my musicians had some problem with the chords but they manage to play well.. Thank you guys.. And thank you Maylyn for playing the alter call part.. :)

For those who are reading this, pls don't misunderstand me.. I am not complaining.. I'm just saying that sometimes if you realise, we can be very distracted with life and work and school and tuition and frens and probably only know how to enjoy life but none of these things will help you grow to understand what God has in store in YOUR very own life.. Do you realise that when your alone and bored, you'll either go on9 to chat with your frens, go on facebook even though you have gone through it like a million times on that particular day or watch some tv?? Think about it.. Does it help you?? If your a Christian, does it help you grow spiritually? The Holy Spirit is always with you but you have make your own decisions.. He will guide you but you make your own choice.. Like for me.. there were 2 songs that came to my head with diff theme's but I had a choice to make and I made it.. even though it is not exactly the right one, God will still bring you back to where He wants you to be.. Like for my WL, God wanted to speak to His children on the greatest commision which is to 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strengh', and even though my theme was on love, He manage to sort of ask Wil to tell me to sing a love song in the end.. I was frustrated but I learn through experience.. Thank God that He uses people in your life to talk to you..

Another lesson is it not always about yourself.. But less of you and MORE of God in your life.. In fact, God turns your weaknesses into His strength as well.. Like what He did to me..

Well, guess what, I really thank God for everyone in ISCA that day.. They were very supportive to me.. Everyone wnated to sing back up for me.. I felt so touched and thankful.. So in the end, I had 5 back up singerssss!!! How blessed!! Really appreciate you guys a lot!! Samuel, Anthony(for helping me with ONE WAY), sarah, Benice and Rachel.. Thank you guys and girls soo much.. Thank you to the sound crew as well as the musicians.. Really appreciate it.. :)

Wow I wrote so much.. haha..

I got to go..

Update.. =)

Okay I noe..

Its been quite a long while since I last updated my blog..

Many many apologies... :0)

Okay since CC has been bugging me to update..

Then I shall just update about where I will be going in 8 weeks time..lol..

Well, first I would like to thank God for finally opening a door for me to get into a prestigious place.. Actually the requirement was too high for me and I nearly gave up but I suddenly had this urge so I wrote to the prof there.. And I tried applying lor.. Its not exactly the course that I want but at least I will be able to branch out later on.. HOPEFULLY!! So after a weeks or so then I got an offer letter!!! Yipeeeeee!!!! Wohoooo!!!! Praise God! So yea that's why I will be going to the University of Nottingham, Malaysia campus..

Its very huge..

I am very very nervous.. Plus scared, fearful of whether I can cope with the subjects and all those nonsense feelings.. Even I myself noe its nonsense but its hard to control..

On the bright side, I will be able to meet all my frens that are studying in KL.. We could probably meet somewhere and sometime..lol..

So yea.. I will be going there.. Soon.. Very soon..

Okay I got to go.. Mom calling.. See that's why I can't blog much.. :)